Just incase it wasn't clearly pointed out in part 1 of the Teenager Paradox, I was trying to point out how students are forced to make a choice between chasing something they know will yield more success, and the traditional path of getting good grades and going to college. But this time, there's a twist. I'm not looking to get good grades, I'm looking to get the best grades in my country, and I have 8 months to do so. (Hopefully have 8 months)

As promised in Part 1, I'll cover the consequences as to what had occurred as a result of my decision to make money the past few years. My parents no longer trust in my ability to get good grades, I just genuinely perceive this as their general lack of trust in my ability to think. They likely genuinely believe, to some extent, that I'm retarded. I know my brother does. And my brother is a fairly decent predictor of what my parents are thinking of. My brother is a looking glass into what to expect in my parents' minds. He's a 2nd POV that allows for me to understand what others perceive of me, at all times. In this case, my brother has roughly 10% the distrust my parents do. Whatever my brothers' thoughts are, multiply them by 10 and you're now in the minds of my parents. 

Here are the choices my parents have right now (that will heavily effect my future): 

1) Let me continue school, and continue to grade 12, and graduate this year at age 16. (May 2024)

2) Bump me down a grade. Restart Grade 11. Spend twice the money on private school. 

My thoughts on option 1: (19/45 predicted grade) - This predicted grade is the grade you submit over to colleges for them to see what your finals are likely going to be. They're deduced through mock exams, exams that closesly simulate what the finals could hypothetically be like. This choice is obviously the cheapest choice. You only need to pay 1 year worth of tuition. Save me a year of my life, and most importantly, allow me to get a higher grade. I have another set of mock exams in october (school starts in september 10) which I could study my balls off for, and likely get a 45/45 predicted grade which would be higher than the entire class, I know I'm capable of it. I've been studying and overlooking the academic material for each subject in the course and to be honest...it's not very hard, especially when compared to actual business. 

A bit of context to my thoughts on option 1: I had to grind for over 14 hours a day at many points in order to genuinely do things that would have a huge effect(in business irl). The most notable efforts here were when I developed for small startups that create games on roblox. Long nights of voice calls with real grown ups that were coding and 3d modelling alongside me. Those are days I'll never forget. Group work is always the best work. I might actually choose to implement that into my studying routine, but with students outside of my school. Students outside of school are more responsible, score higher, and are generally just better overall (not to mention hardcore knowledge in education). There are too many benefits to studying with students from different parts of the world for me not to take the oppurtunity.

My thoughts on option 2: This is obivously the worse financial option as my parents would be spending 2x the amount of money. If I were to be honest, I'm not very sure if this is even an option that exists out of a place of logical reasoning. It'd be entirely emotional is what I'd assume. Why spend 2x the amount of money on restarting a grade if I can already go into the next grade? It's not like I'm barred from going into grade 12. Because I'm not. My coordinator had expressed her wishes that I be able to come into grade 12 and graduate, so I know for a fact that my parents only have this option out of a lack of trust in my ability to pass grade 12. I'd be willing to bet that they care more about what their friends and relatives think about me failing the grade, when compared to my actual future. But then, that'd just be my naive way of thinking. I know that they care for my future, it's just that emotion is clouding their judgement beyond repair. They've been trying to get their hands on tutors that would be able to assess my academic knowledge right now and determine whether I can pass the grade or not. I just think that it's completely retarded since there's a whole 8 months left. They're treating it as if 8 months goes by in an insant? As if I'm unable to catch up academically in a period much smaller than 8 months??? My parents have way too much faith in school being "hard" because it simply is not. Getting a 38/45 is good enough to land me in an ivy league school, especially with my extracurriculars, not to mention that I'm doing my best to win a half marathon (21Km) in december and have been training quite a lot. (This doesn't impede with my ability to study, but rather only strengthens and rehabilitates it. Plus, it'd also be a cool extra-curricular and hobby to pick up.)

I don't know how these next 8 months are going to go like and If I'll restart the year. But it really sucks, the irrationality of my parents might just be messing with my future. I never expected to restart a grade in my whole life. ESPECIALLY considering the fact that I'm allowed to move onto grade 12 by the school itself. Again, highlighting this part is important because it show that my parents have a general lack of belief in me. They don't believe I can do anything. They don't care for the $5,000 I made as a 16 year old. They don't care about the connections I've made or about the skills I've learnt like coding or 3d modelling, all they care about is how I represent them. Whether or not I'm getting good grades and staying in good shape. That's it. That's all they care for and that's all they want from me. I know that studying 14 hours a day is was overboard, I'm not stupid. I know that going down this path basically guarantees my position in the top 10 students nationally, and top 100 internationally. I'm not stupid and I know that it's all a competition. I'm going to ditch the lack of swearing here and get right to the point. 

I know I can pull off 14-16 hour study day, and that I'm fully capable of getting a 0.1% worldwide score (45/45). If i treat academia just like how I treat business, my score is only determined by my biological clock and circadian ryhtm. I don't have a limit besides a strict sleep schedule. If I could be in the top 1% financially for my age group (started at 0$, 4k$+ is top 1% for 16 yr olds), who the hell is going to stop me from being the top 0.1% academically? A sport filled with nerds, losers, and geniuses? I don't really want to include geniuses in there, but it's the reality. So little people get scores that can compete with the rest of the world. It is estimated that only 100 people out of 120,000 got a perfect fucking 45.

That's close to 0.08%, likely 0.1%. That's a worldwide statistic.

Who knows, it's been a while since I've pulled a 14 hour work day, maybe I'll learn how it feels to be a high achiever in the eyes of others for once - I sure as hell don't want to be praised by nerds, but rather for everyone to stop bugging me about my grades. I suppose this all has roots to how everyone around me is always bugging me about my grades, and how I'll finally be able to get rid of them by spending the next 8 months in complete flow state and an efficient workflow. And who knows. Maybe I'll figure out that it only takes 2 months of studying 14 hours to get a 45? Maybe 4 months? Maybe 7? I look forward to seeing what all this academic buzz is all about and why the hell everyone thinks I'm so dumb for getting low marks on peices of fucking paper that provide 0 value to anyone around them.

P.S I wouldn't really care if nobody read this. It's all just to vent if I were to be honest. Nobody wants to listen to me since I've got low grades. 

I'll get a 45 and then treat them the same way they're treating me now - or not. I don't know how this'll end up, but I do know 1 thing for sure, and that's the fact that I'll be studying for 14 to 16 hours a day for every weekend and holiday that comes my way. During school days teachers are slow, innefficient and don't know how to teach, so I'll likely also have to adapt in the classroom and do my best to sit in the back and study at a faster pace, and then get home and continue studying for 4 to 6 hours depending on my sleep schedule and that specific day. 

I wish you all the best of luck,

Cheers,

A soul.