Late night confusion.
Another day... another opportunity missed or taken... or perhaps both or neither. It is only in the dark of the night that I find myself spinning... what am I to do... there’s nothing to do... what have I been doing? Well there’s nothing that’s been done that is of any consequence now... I am spinning or is it just my mind?
Is there a difference?
There is only darkness... but it will not last - have I not come to know the pattern yet?
When in darkness, let it be dark, when in light let there be light.
In this recurring dream I have yet to understand... that it IS just a dream...
There IS more to LIFE than running from darkness and clutching at the light.
More to chasing pleasure and aversion to pain.
Much more.
Outside the mind.
How? What is the practicality of knowing what is outside the mind... I am my mind...
Or am I?
If I have an experience, who is having the experience?
I am... in my mind... and my body.
When I say my mind... and my body where would I point... who is it that the mind and body belong to?
Where would I point to indicate the one who "owns" this mind and body?
If I identify myself through the mind - the thoughts, beliefs, hopes, dreams, aversions, preferences, processes... and the body that supports this mental and physical activity... I am chained to these limitations...
but what... if anything...
Exists...
Beyond the mind...?
Dare I say beyond the body...?
Beyond the conception of ones identity...?
Todays happenings and tonight’s spinning exist on a superfluous level... yet I am still attached... to these thoughts, these feelings, this body, to this identity... to this mind... holding on for dear life... to my dear struggles and perceived accomplishments ... to the two sides of the same coin.
What Am I Not Seeing?
"Let the events happen around you, knowing that none of them are happening TO you. And you will live and equanimous life."-Dr. Kapil Gupta
"Meditation is About Becoming LESS Than You Ever Thought Possible. Meditation is about forgetting yourself. Meditation is about losing yourself. Meditation is about killing the meditator, For the moment the meditator dies, there is only the meditation. And when there is only the meditation there is complete peace."-Dr. Kapil Gupta
