Hi everyone, today I come to you all as a broken man. As everyone knows our beloved little Diamond was fighting a battle with cancer, she was doing a good fight. Well Tuesday we took her to the vet because her pain pills were not working and she was having diarrhea, and she was just mentally off with them. So we go to the vet and asked the vet is there anything else we can give her. The vet recommended to us this newer pain med called Librela and it is an injection you give them once a month. The vet said and I quote" it is perfectly safe, they is no side effects. Any breed or size of dog can take this. " We thought oh my god this is so great , at least she will not be in pain anymore. This was at 11:30 am Tuesday morning she got the injection. She seems good , then around 3 pm my wife come running out to me , I was cutting our grass and said come quick. I get inside and Diamond is just walking around in a circle, my wife is crying and trembling. I said what happened. My wife said Diamond got off her bed looking very scared like she was trying to get away from something, then she had a violent seizure. She was biting at the air, she was drooling ,then her body just begin to violently shake like nothing she had ever seen before . This violent seizure lasted about 2 minutes. Now Diamond is just walking non-stop to the right going round and round. She seemed very out of it and when we looked into her eyes it seems like she was not there. She seemed like she was coming out of it so we would keep an eye on her and if it happens again we will rush her to the vet emergency. My wife got on the internet to look up the drug they give her, now keep in mind the vet told us it was perfectly safe with no side effects. What my wife found, made our hearts sink. This drug does have side effects, it can cause violent seizures, make dogs act like something is trying to harm them, and finally people who got their pet to take this, most pets were not surviving the seizures. Now it is 10:30 pm , my wife is freaking out thinking we made a mistake we should not have listened to the vet. At 10.40 pm Diamond has another violent seizure , this one she is biting at the air again, drooling again , and her body is twitching so hard my wife can barely hold onto her. It lasts about 2 minutes again. Once it was over , my wife says get dressed, we are taking her to the vet. We arrive at the vet emergency around 11:30 pm. We explain what happened , so they say have a seat and we will give her a full exam. We are seating there and we are in shock and angry. This little dog was given 3 months to live because she has cancer ( mass ) all over her hind end in Aug. of 2023 and she has been fighting one h... of a good fight against it. And now, an injection might take the warrior out in a scary violent way. We both were very unset and thinking why did the vet not tell us about these side effects and we can not lose her tonight. It is now 2:30 am and the vet finally calls us back. The vet says basically that she will  probably keep having them and he could give her some meds for it but there is no guarantee that it will work for her because of how severe the seizures are . He also suggested because she is 17 years old and has cancer that maybe we should euthanize her. He says take all the time we need to decide and to come and get him when we have decided. Now my wife got her as a rescue dog when we lived in Maine in Feb. 2012. Diamond was very timid, shy and scared of people when we first got her. My wife has PDSD, high social anxiety , and can not have kids. So this little shy dog became her whole world, she give my wife comfort, let her be a mom, unconditional love, and just made my wife a very brave woman. They have spent the last 12 years together , never spent a night apart , Diamond was her daughter. Diamond was a character to say the least. She would just make you love her, she was very loving and affectionate. She would just know when my wife was having a bad day whether it was physical or emotional hard time, Diamond would be right there by her side , showing her that she was loved and did not have to go through anything alone. I have to work part time and admittingly I am still learning how to deal with my own emotions so I am not that good at helping in the emotional department. So my wife said I can not bare watching my baby go through another violent seizure , it looks so painful and she looks so scared well it is happening. So we are pondering if we should enthenize her . It was like nothing I have had to do before. Having to decide someones fate is not something to take lightly. We talked for what seemed like forever , going back and forth with this hard decision.  then around 3:30 am Diamond started to have another violent seizure, that was it , we both said please put her to sleep , let her have peace. So at 3:33 am on 4/24/24 our beloved dog Diamond was gone. We are in disbelief and angry. I am writing this today because I want everyone to know not to give their pet anything without doing your own research on it. This is my  send off and my record for our beloved dog Diamond. We had her from 02/2012 to 04/2024. You are loved and you will be greatly missed.  We believe she is free now from the restrictions of her body and is running around with my pasted-over family and pets so she is not alone. As for my wife and I, we are taking it one day at a time, remembering her and how much she made our lives better. Now I normally say my closing phrase, and today I am changing it for the first time a little for Diamond. May life bring you a smile, laughter , let love guide you and be there for you always !