By can-amcitizen | can-am citizen | 22 Jul 2021

Today was a difficult day A.D.D wise. My mind was going like a porche , in 1000 different directions. I was like a wolf caught in a foot trap. I would start something and like 2 minutes later I was on to something else. Then my wife was having a flare up day, she could barely walk . So it was like putting an old dodge shadow against a sports car, lol. My wife hates that , she can barely think and I am like "ok, what's next for me to do for you , i am ready". Its gets hard for her because she use to have an important job where a lot of people looked to her for the answers. I know she mentally struggles with just coming to terms that she is not that woman any more. I can see the saddest in her eyes on the really hard days. She describes it like this to me. Image getting hit by a semi truck and you are starting to get yourself up and wham a vampire then comes and sucks the life out of you, then someone sets your nerves on fire , and you get a concussion(dazed/confused). now throw my A.D.D into the mix and you got insanity , we would make a good sitcom . But at the end of the day, we are very grateful for each other and the love.Β  I bought a stock yesterday and hold it overnight . I sold today after it went down by a dollar then back up 90 cents. So I lost 10 cents a share which was $10 total. I have a 57 % win rate. I want to get better so I also have a practice account I use, it helps and I would recommend people start by doing that first. wow , my A.D.D is bad today. I just sat back down to this, I got up and went to look at my stock platform right in theΒ  middle of typing this . Oh the fun of this, at least I came back to this(half hour later). Thank god this is not a timed platform ,lol. My wife and I always watch the singing shows(America Got Talent, The Voice, American Idol) . She was able to watch an entire show with me today, so grateful. We enjoy it so much, just to see everyone going for their dreams. My wife is an awesome singing but she is too shy to try out for it. When I get really amped up with my A.D.D , I lesson to native flute music. It always seems to calm my mind down and relaxes me . I also love spending time outdoor in nature , so I try to get outside every day for at least an hour to enjoy the sun. I look online a lot for the news and I have notice that people are just all crazed now. Their is a lot of shooting , hit and runs, hate crimes. It is so sad the world has come to this. I don't get it, we are all humans , share the same everything basically. Why is there so much caos out there. So this is my life, I just read over what I wrote and wow I am all over the place. If you like a story line and I normal conversation then my posts are not for you. I am so random with my thoughts and I am like this in person too. Sometimes my wife will be talking to me about something and I will just blurt out something that just popped into my head. It will have nothing to do with what she is saying to me, and I just can't stop myself. Conversations can get very confusing between the two of us.Β  Well my wife needs my help so time to go. Leaving on a positive note. I am thankful for having a very patient and understanding wife. Good night.Β 

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I am a 51 year man in a 20 year interracial relationship. So I have had my eyes opened for me with humanity. Nothing surprises me anymore.

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