The reason why you begin, is a very important part of your journey. So as I went through my journey I had lost my way quite a few times. I actually didn't realise that I was on a detour most of my life. The time that I found out that I was on a detour I actually got mad. The madness drove me crazy, it drove me so crazy that I needed isolation. I didn't understand the need for human company, I thought at the time that people are just toxic. I have been in isolation for most of the time that I have been going through what happens to be the reason why I began this journey. So this is the reason why I began to do what I do is because when I came back in contact with the people I found that I had grown in some weird ways. Because I had always thought that my growth was based on being with other people and I thought that the only way that I can learn is by interaction from other people.

The part of my journey that I'm talking about is this writing that I do of course it's barely a percentage of my whole journey. My whole journey is too big and it’s too vast for me to actually cover in writing. Most of the time I find myself too lazy to write and this comes after writing thousands of articles and a couple of books so it puzzles me that every now and then I hit the writer's block. Which is something that I haven’t really explored because I have always attributed it to anxiety and for this reason and the reason that I realised that writing actually helped me deal with my anxiety disorders. Everything else was mostly meaningless, the only true meaning that I found was through my writing. My writing brought my world to life and it's not that I didn't have the life or a world before it is because my writing seem to bring more life than the normal life that I know. So when I came across an article about the writer's block I skimmed through it. Not knowing that this was one of the most important articles I could ever read because in that article I found out how other writers deal with the urge of not wanting to write. Because the writer's block is more about the feeling of not wanting to write than it is about having the feeling to write and not finding the courage to write. It feels like there is a force that is keeping you from writing.

Personally it has been a few months that I haven’t really released proper articles due to my writer's block. My own understanding of my writer's block it’s very crucial for my success in writing because if I do not understand why I'm not in the mood for writing then it gets very hard for me to actually write or even remember the reason why I started writing. So I use different methods to get over the writer's block it is one of the deepest holes a writer can ever find themselves in because the writer themselves actually forgets that their writing is important. When this happens it’s like the author forgets that they are the author and so different methods have to be explored to help them find their way back to writing. For me this took quite a bit of time, a few months to be exact but nothing feels better than this because I get to get back at it, I get to write again. The new methods that I have found are so many methods that one can actually utilise to get their writing on track. From dictating to somebody who is writing for you to dictating to a computer program software to write for you, there’s even softwares that will write for you. I'm almost entirely sure that in the near future there will be cryptocurrencies that are mined through dictation and yes this is an idea to somebody out there so that you find a way 2 unblock others and make some money.

I started to write because it helped me get rid of my anxieties many people have different coping mechanisms. I couldn't find one that is more worthwhile than writing because of all things that could ever last time or through time - writing has been one of the things that have outlasted everything else. You often hear it is written in the Egyptian hieroglyphs, in the Bible, in the Quran, in the different scripts around the world spiritual, religious and the occult books. These seem to be some of the things in time that survive the most harsh conditions.

Because of these writings we are able to replicate what was done in the past in terms of clothing industries different industries foods to do things the way they were done. Because of the recordings that was done in the past because of writing we are able to keep faith! Because of writing we are able to get stronger and to be more complete because of writing. So I looked through the world and only writing could really appeal to me as one final thing that I can do because what the world was telling me through my anxieties is that what I need is one thing to hold onto with consistency. And this is true so when I looked in the world I saw that everything in this world is based mostly on writing so I wrote just like we did back in school! Just like you do when you need to Journal something, just like you do when you are marking something when you are noting down something. So as much as it is a joy to read a book it is double the joy to write the book. This I have felt both ways, as I wrote I discovered so many things about my own writing as a skill and as a gift I saw that I can improve on my writing. My improvement brought me more views and aspects from which I could see and get a better perspective of the world. As I wrote about my imaginations I saw that I could imagine better when I wrote about the world I saw that the world taught me to get better. When I read what I wrote I found that I grow more intellectually. I discovered that I am growing others by what I write so I looked into what I'm writing about. I started writing articles about poems and little stories that contained my day and how I was feeling and soon it spiralled to a series of posts that have a story to them that eventually compiled into a book because they were all connected. I saw that I could not write the book by itself from beginning to the end because of the writer’s block I would always find reasons not to write it. I wrote one of my first books in posts or articles that I published online this was the infamous Phoenix retribution. And from Phoenix retribution 1, came Phoenix retribution theology.

It doesn't stop there it goes deeper than I can actually write about. This writing that I'm doing right now helped me overcome my writer's block and there is nothing sweeter. So what happened is that I decided that I needed to get back to my writing because of how it made me feel and I also need to write a bit more books. Books are very close to my heart and so when I didn't have books to read I was pushed to writing my own books. To give the world my point of view in terms of what I saw as the world that could be from that point. When dealing with anxiety disorders there are so many views and voices going on in the experience. What that did to me is bring me so many ideas, out of these ideas I found that only writing was more easily done without depending too much on finances or other people. A lot of things that can help you deal with anxiety need other people’s involvement. I found that I couldn’t hold people’s attention for a long time so I had more time to myself than with other people, this brought me the clarity that I actually have the time and space to write. What was missing was the urge to complete my writing. There was always this sensation flying over me, sensations that I’d be feeling on my body.

This held me back for so long, but once I picked up that pen and got the paper, damn it was a whole flow. Before I took the next deep breath I was already halfway through 500 pink sheets of paper that I got as a gift from someone very special. This special person actually asked me what I’d like to do, I said international business trade, then this person asked me the steps I have in mind to get there, after that the person asked what I am able to do now and I said I could write until the pandemic subsided. That’s when the magic started flowing. As I got those 500 sheets of pink paper, I had no worries that the paper was pink, what I cared about was containing my excitement that I could finally put something down. Of course the first few pages was trash but as I got through the next tens, I found my flow and voila, I found my way through the whole stack of 500 sheets and even wrote on the back. The rest is history, this is just one of those stories that got me writing, if I start on them I would take all year because it took me a lifetime to comprehend how much I really love writing and how much writing means to my life

Of course since one cannot just write today and tomorrow it’s a new York best sellers. I needed to cultivate patience, what patience was to me before my writing, patience is finding something to do in the meantime. I am very good at that, even if it’s watching TV, I’d be watching mad scientist kind of staff.

Compiling all these into something’s to write about was the magic, I found that a lifetime is so much to write about and it can be edited to fit your mind and how you saw the world in contrast to how you’d like it to be. Even if only one person views your writing, you know that your writing contributes to the readers perspective even if that reader is you. I found this when I reread my posts. The impression that I had writing isn’t the same as what I had rereading what I wrote. Repurposing posts and articles actually became some sort of super power, other platforms other than this one really do not mind repurposed content. I love this because it allows for more exposure, more earnings if the site is about the rewards. I found some cool platforms that will pay you very little but their views are insane, in the thousands per post. While on the best paying sites you barely get over a thousand views for an article. Repurposing allows the post to get over ten thousand views and that for me is magic. Having published over a thousand articles, it’s pure magic to repurpose more than a thousand publications to another thousand each, that means I’d get more than a million and still counting. What sorcery is this?

It’s the right kind of sorcery, when you get started with whatever it is that you love doing, the heavens open up to bless you with subtle nudges on your next move. And the move after that is just waiting after you take the first step, write the first page, execute the first trade, do the presentation, paint the first painting, plant the first plant or shoot the first bullet (at the shooting range of course) or even with people. When you are facing dry spells, to overcome that you need to get talking to the people right? Approaching the ideal people will get you in that energy and before you know you’ll have your dream realised right In front of your eyes when you keep at it and match it with deep emotions to charge it up.

While in this block of whatever kind, take care of your consumptions. The media, what you read, hear, apply, eat, breath, smoke, drink, meditate on, look at, and so on, most of these either make you or by ck you. If it breaks you, you have a choice to get better or get bitter. I always choose better, sometimes bitter before better but when you decide that nothing matters more than that I feel good, you will find that choosing to getting better every single day despite what’s on the outside is the only way.

Of course as with everything else it’s much easier said than done so one moment after another, you create that momentum. Spiral it all into a force, think long term starting with the end in mind or just get started. I did and it made me so happy as I learn through the punches it only gets better as the time goes by.

Love n light

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