The colors green and red fade from my eyes. As the grey takes over my skies. The blue once revered is now sought after as clouds approach it and take their time in muddling its beauty into their own shade. 

The thought of the internet being a future still remains yet the people that need it seem to take it lightly. Every hour that passed it grows and every hour they are less aware and grow into oblivion. 

Energy is sapped from me. The sadmess of open eues that cant see reaches deeper than i would have liked. Yet i see my challenge through them as the internet will always be by my side. 

When the colors green and red fade from the malice of grey. I see the world infront of me change into the world inside me. And the new internet i look for isnt finding a place. I see it having its own space irrelevant of me and it brings more grey with it. 

The lights of it dont fade but th distance that its creating for it makes my will weak and points out to attributes i lack and long for. Patience/creativity/structure....  it has them all and i cant seem to find my place within them. As the days go grey and the outside world suffers i look for the ability i once had to be involved in the internet and the days that i will have to cstch up on because of weakness and a romanticised version of a life i see.