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Aphasic Fragmentations

By fluck81 | Tahoe Crypto Journey | 14 Aug 2021


Fabricating dreams Sentries from insanity Regressing into innocence Ignorance And all the seductive lies Acquiesced to a fallacy construct amplified Mordantly haunted by those seraphic brown eyes Still trying to find a piece of me that hasn’t died Bound by nothing but myself One step away from a proliferating pedestrian perception Swallowing my own deception Forever without unequivocal conception Bathos needed The arrant heeded Emphatically ambivalent Trying to drown my malcontent Fantasizing of everything that escapes me Of everything this earthworm can’t see Dimming my mind as i clutch my heart So that maybe one day I can function in this parochial orchestration Selfishly striving for complete self-abnegation Gravid with a visceral desire for absolution Riddled with delphic passages of utter confusion Foundering in oceans of paradoxical catastrophes Aleatoric attempts to make my wrongs right Attenuated by endogenous demon fights Infatuated with things that were only long ago Digressed by a recalcitrant lacuna Trying to recover my antebellum state of mind Before I swallowed the blue pill And became enshrouded in an amorphous evil That gave birth to a diminished will And a love deficiency Before I became infested with a resonating apathy And all my intentions got miserably misguided Before my dualities collided And my egregious escapades were decided Now I sit Misshapen by vitriolic lamentations Writing aphasic fragmentations Dreaming of her incognito My obsession concentrate A questionably chimerical fate Equipped with a mantic smile Extricating my intricate entanglements Decimating the decadence of my sanity Caustic to the infelicity of my soul Harboring exclusive connotations Resuscitating lost hope And disintegrating the idiopathic doubts Salient in a never ending procession of spurious faces Searching for sanctuary Driven by emotion Eviscerated by two Wanting so badly to repudiate this ineffable emptiness that’s killing me And sometimes my mind sees what my heart only wishes were true Permeating uncertainty Questioning god’s infallibility Trying to assimilate my inadequacies Touched by others vagaries Overcoming the dissolution of a non-fiction specious love Coming to grips with my pariah status Feigning confidence Daunted ambition Can’t even remember what the sun feels like Artic winters The belief continuum splinters Wading through a contumacious dishevelment Uncontrollably dissident A victim of human bondage Feeling fundamentally incongruous Encased in a regretful taste Displaced Now living a different life with choice erased Perfunctorily walking through days Looking past these vapid grays Lucidly seeing all I lack Wishing I could go back Constant sojourns providing solitary security Remembering the first time I saw the invisible city And how I’ve become its casualty Void of solace Closeness Stripped of purpose Left with your best guess

 

 

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