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Life is not for people like me, how about you?

1 May 2022 5 minute read 0 comments fenix-aarizon

Photo by Mathias P.R. Reding from Pexels Life is not for people like me, it seems.I've been waiting, for nothing, it seems. There's simply no end to feeling like my life is meaningless. It will always be returning. That deep, darkness lurking - the R...

I Decided to Read 200 Books This Year, And This Is What Has Happened So Far - Part 3 of 26

2 Mar 2022 10 minute read 1 comment shammahgodoz

I took a break. I took about five days off because the reading was altering me somewhat. It is expected. I have been consuming information and exposing myself to various thoughts and ideas all through these weeks, and I have found my mind drifting in...

Mind Dump: Blow-Off Valve

31 Dec 2021 1 minute read 0 comments fenix-aarizon

Thumbnail image: Green Ceramic Mug on Person's Feet on Pexels.com Listen to God and doors will be opened.Defy God and He will humble you. I have to write a brain dump before work today; sometimes things take off without us being ready for them to....

Getting butterflies & burning your bridges too, huh?

10 Mar 2022 12 minute read 0 comments fenix-aarizon

Photo by Hristo Fidanov from PexelsI tend This whole thing is embarrassing to release, but I'm doing it, because it's a reminder that sometimes - things will be awkward. Making choices is the only way forward. With a growth mind set, we can learn fro...

Conscious rising from ashes

8 Jun 2022 18 minute read 1 comment fenix-aarizon

We must become conscious of wrongdoing before we are able to create real change in our life. Table of Contents Consciousness of choice Regarding sexuality Consciousness of fear as change Recognizing fear for what it is Saving our self from fear...

I made it, guys. Here's to turning a page for the day.

25 Apr 2022 6 minute read 0 comments fenix-aarizon

Photo by Ono Kosuki from Pexels Unfortunately I don't have much to write when I'm not feeling like my world is burning to a crisp.Like my world is burning to a crisp. Proch by Jutro, Linda (Spotify)All I was was dust. Too much caffeine - not enough d...

[Mind Dump] Do you also daydream about

29 Mar 2022 3 minute read 0 comments fenix-aarizon

Photo by Yaroslav Shuraev I'd like to write about how my day went. I'd like to be able to journal what happened, what I noticed different in myself, and how I perceive other people and their influence on my courses of action. Like when the women of m...

An attempt was made - to socialize

28 Mar 2022 3 minute read 0 comments fenix-aarizon

Photo by Márton Novák Attempted to socialize03/27/22, Sunday morning Losses. Social losses are aplenty. Reach out and get rejected because the few you like aren't into you. That's why it's important to function in a way that doesn't rely on the accep...

Home Group & Dreams - Fenix Mind Dump

4 Apr 2022 2 minute read 0 comments fenix-aarizon

Photo by Creation Hill from Pexels Home Group I am in a hurry - today I have home group at 6:30PM. To make that appointment, I tried a couple different schedules to make up time at work. My initial attempt at making up time was to come into wor...

Associating the dissociative & what must change.

7 May 2022 8 minute read 2 comments fenix-aarizon

Dissociative states That feeling you get when after someone reminds you of something that feels so distant yet was a mere two days ago. It feels like the experience came from many months or years ago. What is that phenomenon? I think when I experienc...