You're shallow waters
I'm the deep sea bed and I'm the reason you flow
I got more moons wrapped around my head Than Jupiter knows
DROWNING IN THE WRONG DEPTHS
Yea, I seemed to sink lower;
I saw the water levels rising above my head, water flooding my throat and a pressure crushing my wept, broken chest.
But then... the charm of my birthright began to glow,
faintly at first, in the distance.
The flutter of your eyelashes
(once so hypnotic) threw dappled light,
like morse code,
across my retinas and a switch was flicked...
I felt me and
With coffee bean clarity,
Cherry popped like a boil and
That the love I feel.
Was never fucking real.
Our vulnerabilities once hidden
Touched too soon,
way before we did.
Dangerous slope that hun,
but down, down it we slid.
Into this brightly coloured inertia our darkest recesses built
And tempting as it is to stay
I can't breathe in these shallow depths.
The soft stickiness of your ache engulfs me.
Suffocates me; fills my airways and veins; takes over my every damaged nerve ending and sense until...
I am senseless
And it ain't easy to reject that shit because,
it is a perfect match organically
(and otherwise to mine)
Despite the reasons and the rhyme...
The suckerpunch of our toxicity blinded us
for what seemed like an eternity
to the catalytic purpose of our connection.
I saw 7 Magpies today and no, this secret will never be told.
And I think I'm happy not to fully know
just let the truth unfold
As our hearts break over a landscape of moons and lies and
implode, exhausted but free...
The disgust at my own weakness, and yet the abject pride at the depths in which I swam. But a voice whispered softly from within:
get out while you still can
That guarded resolve I once clung to desperately
Pisses into the cracks of yesterday's despair.
I'm (up) there...swimming like a, mermaid in depths you would surely drown in,
Are where you've always been.
That brightly coloured inertia
Set against the blackest of night,
Engulfing you and your comfortable fears.