Me fighting the flow of life

Depression Sucks

By CessyPiggy | cessypiggy | 3 May 2021

Depressed? Depressed about what?

Questions you hear from people who may not understand the seriousness of depression. Depression is probably the worst feeling you will feel in this world. Fear, insecurities, overthinking, sudden changes in mood, and suicidal thoughts. Ugh, not fun at all. Depression may look like the person is just sad and lonely, and though loneliness is one of the reasons why people become depressed, they are struggling with more than sadness and loneliness. Researchers from the University of Notre Dame and the University of Oregon say that significant psychosocial events are the causes mentioned in the article why people become depressed. Many people suffer from depression but are scared to tell anyone about it because they are afraid to be judged. People need to normalize depression because suicide starts from it, and suicide is usually the final stage. According to Women and Depression, 30,000 suicides are reported in the United States each year and may be linked to clinical depression. This research only includes the United States which makes you wonder about the numbers for the rest of the world. The numbers of women that become depressed are more than men. According to Women and Depression, women are twice as likely to be depressed as men because of contraceptives, childbirth, menopause, reproductive hormones, and other factors. Besides the fact that women are more emotional than men, our reproductive hormones always play an important role in our well-being because this is something that women cannot control.

 What do you think people with depression endure while going through it? You may have experienced or currently experiencing it, and for some reason, you are not aware. The symptoms of depression from the cited articles Overcoming Depression and Life Stress and Major Depression are the following: depressed mood, losing interest to continue, weight loss or weight gain, loss of energy, feeling worthlessness, recurrent thoughts of death or suicidal attempts, and insomnia or hypersomnia. A minimum of five symptoms in the list are recurring every day for two weeks will show that you have MDD or Major Depression Disorder. Do you recognize feeling this way? Well, this is not the complete list of causes and mostly just the physical signs of depression. Before you experience the physical symptoms, depression will start from simple signs that are unnoticeable. You will first experience the early signs that are the emotional, spiritual, and social signs. Depression will torture you mentally, make you lose your sense of purpose, and even make you suffer physically before showing you the noticeable signs which lead to health issues. According to Life Stress and Major Depression, depression ranked as the fifth leading cause of disability among all diseases worldwide. Our health affects our mentality, but maybe it is our mentality that gave us health issues in the first place? It is necessary to be informed and aware of the symptoms of depression.

Possibly you don’t recognize the reasons why you become depressed, or rather your family and friends questioned you for being depressed. It might be your school deadlines, your boss, your finances, your diet, or even your addiction to social media. Whatever the reasons, it is crucial to know the root of what you feel. According to Life Stress and Major Depression, Scott Monroe and Mark Reid stated that approximately 50% to 80% of depressed persons report a recent severely stressful life event that happened prior to onset. Depression will start from a small problem that triggers the wider cause of stress. Maybe you are struggling with financial aspects, and then you start feeling insecure. It can also be you fail in school, and then you start feeling discouraged. Or maybe because you had relationship problems, and then you started doubting yourself. Even though these are minor reasons, this can still lead to anxiety and depression. The source of stress is also the way out. You will have to recognize the cause, so you will know what to do to overcome it.

What can you do to overcome depression? Well, you will most likely not agree with me, but the hardest phase of depression is when overcoming it. Asking for help is uncomfortable when you’re suffering from it because you are afraid to hear criticism. Additionally, when you are in a depressive mood you are not sure what you need to do to heal despite the obvious. According to the article Women and Depression, imbalanced neurotransmitter substances such as norepinephrine, dopamine, and serotonin may lead to mood dysregulation. These are the healthy hormones that help our body fight stressful situations. The food we eat, the amount of sleep, the quantity of exercise, our achievements, and even our daily activities are how we trigger these healthy substances that affect our mood. Practically, it is telling us how we spend our time every day affects us. According to American Public Health Association, green exercise helps your wellbeing which includes walking in nature, gardening, and being exposed to the green environment. It is helpful if you go out and spend time looking around your environment. You will realize how blessed you are to be alive without disabilities, having shelter, food to eat, and other things that people wish to have. As stated in the article Overcoming Depression, ask yourself what behaviors you are willing to change to help yourself get better. You must be ready to change your routine. There is nothing impossible If you are accepting to do it. Healing might not happen immediately but continue trying every day because this will later remind you of who you are before you became depressed. Planning your day also helps you become more productive rather than spending your whole day in bed or overthinking. It will not be an easy journey, but it will be worth it.

You might not want to hear my story, but I will share it anyways. I was diagnosed by a doctor with mild depression.  Moving to a different country is the significant reason why I became depressed. I feel intimidated by everyone, hopeless and hesitant. It feels like the world doesn't understand what It feels like to have it. I have trouble sleeping at night, with or without activities in the daytime. I depended on sleeping aides to be able to go to sleep at night. Times were rough back then, and I didn't know who to talk to about it.  I lost so much weight, lost interest in everything I used to love, and even attempted suicide twice. Where is the happy me? Who am I now? Why do I feel so intimidated by everyone? And many more questions I ask myself every day. I used to be a fun person. When I went through depression, I didn't know who I was or what I wanted in life anymore. I didn't know what made me happy. I didn't know where to start and what to do. The only thing I knew at that time was that I needed to help myself. It was hard, but I managed to get up every day trying to overcome it. I realized that I must help myself because no one is going to help me, except me. Helping myself is also changing how I see the world every day. The emptiness and sadness were unbearable, but I kept trying every day. I never thought I would go through depression, nobody does. I used to judge people with depression until I experienced it myself. It was the worst feeling you will ever feel in your life. Nobody would want to go through depression. I still look back and learn from it. This is a reminder for those who don’t understand the people who are going through depression, respect them and be kind. And for those who are going through depression, always remind yourself of the quote from Overcoming Depression we must acknowledge that we are worthy of love, and part of such love involves taking care of ourselves. Take care of yourself. I know it’s tough but I’m aware that you are trying the best you can to feel better. Keep going because things will get better one day, you will look back and remember how brave you were to overcome it.

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A small town girl looking to share her life and hopefully inspire people along the way. I've been through ups and downs like many of us did and I know It wasn't easy. Let's get through life together and prove everyone that everything is possible.


A small-town girl looking to share her life and hopefully inspire people along the way. I've been through ups and downs like many of us did and I know It wasn't easy. Let's get through life together and prove to everyone that everything is possible.

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